
Here is a sketch i did in August 2001....it isnt a great sketch, so why did i post it? Because 6 years ago this month i was invited up to the black bear for the very first time. It was also, while i was visiting the black bear for the first time, that i rcvd a phone call from family...tumors were discovered in my fathers brain. Well, if you have read any of my blogs, you know the final outcome of those tumors...he battled cancer for 18 months before the tumors were too numerous to treat.
I find it interesting that that moment in my life was such a turning point on so many levels. Sorrow and Pain combined with Wonder and Joy...i cant believe it has been 6 years! In that moment i was reminded that my father wouldnt be here forever, and that his tumors could result in something tragic...I was also on a new relationship journey...one that would bring me to the mountains where i would start a family with a wonderful man.
I was left alone with my thoughts that evening, so i decided to wander down to the river and paint. i took out some watercolors and escaped to nature. My father loved the outdoors, and i knew he would love it up here. I often told him of this place, in hopes that he would come visit someday. He never did make the journey up here...he never got to meet his only granddaughter...he never even knew she was on the way. But in many ways it is because of him that i am up here.
The loss of my father reminded me that life is indeed too short...we never know how long we are going to be here, so it is important to live life while you can...these new thoughts helped me to take some chances in life...chances i might never had taken otherwise. And because of him i am living...not just surviving, but truly living! I thank you for your courage dad! Not a day goes by that i dont think of him, and when i sit by the river, i know he is there with Jordyn and i...all part of nature and there always!
i love you dad!
lisa





